P.t.s.d More Condition_symptoms

The feeling is always that I am not able to build anything. Widen that the foundations are there, but fuck if I can put a brick on the other.

Anyone who knows me knows that will never save a smile or a joke to anybody, all you are Beven rejoicing with me. I love seeing the smiles of my surroundings. What I like most is not so much to know that others are happy, but who are happy with me, Cencetti are similar but very different.
but I do not think many know how pessimistic about my life, how I hate that I'm not doing, that everything I do I think it always wrong.
If I look back I see is scorched earth and large foundations. But the scorched earth is always better than sprinkled with salt, something you can still grow ...

I'm afraid, are very concerned about the future, I see black and I can not help.
are days around my head in a verse of the song The shadow line of Jovanotti, a simple phrase that every parent will say to their children, a sentence that I never considered.
"... life is not easy, it takes sacrifice. One day you will see it and tell me if I'm right. There comes a day when we must make a decision ... "And
'waiting long for that day will be time for all in or all out.
Choose or chip in to David?
For years I've been waiting for this moment, and that day will be pretty much the beginning of this year. ... New year new life never saying it was so spot on.

I have to take a clear-cut decision, but slut bitch I'm not sure about what I eat for dinner I can and decide for my life?
For too long have been the subject of myself, always on the bench waiting for a whistle coach. I feel I have only done apapparizione in some pre-season friendlies, not enough for me more now, I'm 28 years old and my career is about to end, I have to see what it's worth it or not?
2009 will be my biggest game, I must not miss this event, I want to be the owner and deserve the jersey, throw this sweater on the floor of pessimism, and run to enter the field to score.
This alone can save me, all or nothing.

Now I gotta go, I'm going to keep me warm ...